Well, as I drove around this afternoon from one errand to another I so proudly (notice the pride) declared to God that I was a woman of faith and I was going to ride out the storm, holding on until it was over. Well as we know, when we start making declarations to God just watch out! He told me to get out the bottom of the boat, stand up and face the storm. Now that is not what I thought I would hear from Him. I told God "I am not that strong, I will fall backwards" God said"I will be the pole holding you up" Well, I am not sure what exactly God means by telling me to stand up but I am sure He will show me. So I am going to be standing up at the front of boat until the storm passes over. I guess I will have a first hand look if we are heading for a ice burg. Of course I will be the first to see the sunrise too. I will be glad when the clouds are gone and we have clear sailing before us. I know I will have the best view to see how God is in control of my life. If I am in the bottom of the boat with a blanket over my head then I will miss God's spectacular rescue mission.
So if I look kinda wet then just know that I am at the front where I can get the spray for the boat all over me and that I am looking forward to the distant shore.
Until next time
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Following my heart
Tonight as I headed home from my bible study I felt this oppressive weight settle on me like a wet sheet. I had a splitting headache and everything felt so surreal. I had had a crazy day, running in circles and not accomplishing anything. I can usually shake this feeling but I found myself not able to concentrate in bible study. I usually love to hear Beth, I just connect with her as she lets God use her to spread his message.
Anyway, I got in my car, drove out of town and into the countryside. I was trying to connect with God but not having much luck at pushing the world away when I looked up and there it was, my heart, right there where it ususally is, out on the road in front of me.
Now before you think I have lost my mind remember how about a year ago I left church and as I made my way home I realized that my lights where making a perfect heart on the road in front of me. Now on that night I thought "this ain't going to be good". I figured my time was up, I mean it hadn't been there before, it just appeared. I hadn't had my lights adjusted since my wreck in May 2006 and this was January of 2007. Anyway, I made it home and decided not to say anything about it but every time I got in the car there it was, a heart shape on the road whenever my lights were on dim. I finally go the nerve up to ask Rod if he saw it and low and behold he saw it too. We still don't have a explanation for it but it is still there and I don't really pay much attention to it until tonight. I just followed it on down the road and felt this peaceful feeling come over me. I know that God is using that heart to let me know I am following Him. I am not venturing in to unknown territory, He is the guide, His been there before. I don't have a clue where we are going but He is always out there just waiting for me to need Him to lead me in the dark (and I am in the dark alot). He knows where we are going and He doesn't need mapquest. He is the ultimate mapquest. He knows the shortest way to get there and how to get pass the mountains and over the rivers.
God uses the simpliest things to bring me up short. He is such a people person, He is the greatest HR person, he know what we need to get our job done. I needed to see a phyiscal reminder that He loves me and everything will be ok. I never know when my heart might leave me so I will enjoy every time I drive after dark.
Thank you Dear Lord for your glowing heart in my life. Amen
Cindi
Anyway, I got in my car, drove out of town and into the countryside. I was trying to connect with God but not having much luck at pushing the world away when I looked up and there it was, my heart, right there where it ususally is, out on the road in front of me.
Now before you think I have lost my mind remember how about a year ago I left church and as I made my way home I realized that my lights where making a perfect heart on the road in front of me. Now on that night I thought "this ain't going to be good". I figured my time was up, I mean it hadn't been there before, it just appeared. I hadn't had my lights adjusted since my wreck in May 2006 and this was January of 2007. Anyway, I made it home and decided not to say anything about it but every time I got in the car there it was, a heart shape on the road whenever my lights were on dim. I finally go the nerve up to ask Rod if he saw it and low and behold he saw it too. We still don't have a explanation for it but it is still there and I don't really pay much attention to it until tonight. I just followed it on down the road and felt this peaceful feeling come over me. I know that God is using that heart to let me know I am following Him. I am not venturing in to unknown territory, He is the guide, His been there before. I don't have a clue where we are going but He is always out there just waiting for me to need Him to lead me in the dark (and I am in the dark alot). He knows where we are going and He doesn't need mapquest. He is the ultimate mapquest. He knows the shortest way to get there and how to get pass the mountains and over the rivers.
God uses the simpliest things to bring me up short. He is such a people person, He is the greatest HR person, he know what we need to get our job done. I needed to see a phyiscal reminder that He loves me and everything will be ok. I never know when my heart might leave me so I will enjoy every time I drive after dark.
Thank you Dear Lord for your glowing heart in my life. Amen
Cindi
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