Tal's birthday

Today my nephew Clay 6 years old. Happy Birthday Clay!!! Thank you Lord for him.
Today my brother would have been 38 years old. Thank you Lord for the years we had with him. He died almost 12 years ago.
I thought that I would never be able to smile again but God heals. Time can't heal only God does! If you don't turn your sorrow over to God then you will never heal, 12 years or 20 years the hurt will still linger only it will turn into bitterness and anger. You will then be in bondage which is worse then sorrow because you can't go forward. The enemy uses time to hide all your true feelings and just when you think you have made progress it will return with full force. So exactly the saying "time heals" is a lie that the satan uses to keep us in bondage.
Being healed by God isn't easy but it does have a positive outcome. God will hold you in His palm as you cry and bring the sunshine just when it seems you can't see your way out of the darkness. The key is to give Him our pain willingly so He can heal us. It won't be overnight but it will happen if we willingly surrender to God. Give my pain to God was tough for me because I was enjoying it. I knew exactly what to do to reduce my self to tears and believe it or not I actually looked forward to it. It was an addiction. Satan was using me to his benefit. I was mad at God and acting out in several rebellious ways. I had left our home church, since that was the last place I saw him alive, and was church hoping. I finally ended up attending a huge church so I could just go when I felt like it. I shudder to think about how my actions hurt God. He so wanted to comfort me but I had put up a wall between us. Now God expects us to question the terrible things that happen in our lives but we have to accept that He knows best. One day God showed me that it was time to put my season of grief behind me and to move on with life. That doesn't mean that I don't still have sad times but I can look forward to the holiday season with joy in my heart instead of absolute dread. Thanks be to God Almighty, our Comforter and Strength.

Blessings

As I am sitting here at my desk I feel an overwhelming urge to PRAISE THE LORD!!!
I am so blessed to have access to such godly women, in my personal life, on the internet and in bible studies. I am feeling anxious about the future but God keeps telling me to settle down and enjoy the ride which is out on the front of the boat which you can read about in an earlier blog.
I don't really see how we will make it but I know we will, by the GRACE OF GOD. I have to remember how powerful God is and to let HIM do HIS Work. I have always tried to do it my way and boy what a mess.
Well, have to go rescue my little Jackie Russell from some cobwebs that are driving her crazy.

CARICH